The Bell Jar-Chapter 9-10

When Esther returns to Boston she goes into this state of not wanting to do anything.  She keeps to the house and gives up on doing anything over the summer.  She goes through all these different options saying she will do this and that but actually she decides not to do any of it because she is defeated with everything that has happened.  Before she came home she and Marco had this thing where he was very rude to her and he attacked her outside.  That really scared her and made her really down when she left New York for Boston.  Then she got to Boston and found out she wasn’t chosen for the summer program.  All of this led to her being sort of depressed and not happy with how things were.  She considered changing majors and not doing stuff that she might have done.  She just gave up on everything and felt very defeated.